Archive for the ‘Family’ category

Jan

07

An Incredibly Sad Day - The One Year Anniversay Of The Passing Of My Brother

I am so incredibly sad and full of regret today. Today is the first year anniversary of the death of my brother, Jimmy.

My Brother Jim

When I received the phone call last year, Jan 7, 2009, that my brother had died in a terrible gun cleaning accident. I was actually in my bedroom packing to go back east and visit my family for the first time in 21 years.

I hadn’t even spoken to anyone the whole time other then my one sister who found me on myspace the year before and we started talking online. I have terrible anxiety and panic attacks when I start thinking of the past and going to visit and such. My doctor gave me some xanax and told me to go and see them, which is what I was on my way to do. However it ended up being my brothers funeral that I attended instead of a family “reunion”. The day of his funeral was my birthday, Jan 12.

I have so much guilt built up inside of me from not telling him that I loved him and missed him before he was gone. We always think that we have all the time in the world to tell someone that we love them and that we care. But in reality live is short and one never truly knows how long any of us have.

To get away from my childhood problems, I ran also from my brothers and sisters which wasn’t fair to them at all. It wasn’t their fault.

Please tell me, how does one deal with such regret?

Sep

24

Ultrasound Pictures

Well Brittani got her ultrasound done today but there was a big misunderstanding. We can’t find out the gender until the 20th of next month

However I do have a couple pictures of my new Grandbaby!

Brittani said it was amazing seeing her baby for the first time. I am so happy for her and Ben. I can’t wait to get over to New Zealand and visit them.

Can you believe the detail in these pictures? It is amazing.

Even though I was bummed that I didn’t get to find out rather I am having a Granddaughter or a Grandson, it sure was awesome seeing my little Grandbaby for the first time

Aug

31

Fantasy Football with Beer And Tacos

This is my very first fantasy football draft that I was actually able to do at my son’s house. It was SO much fun!!

fantasy football

I did start to get a little overwhelmed since I am still pretty much a newbie so I had cheat sheets and injury sheets galore…..haha!! But I also had to be on facebook chat with Jeff to give him all the details since he was back in San Diego. I had to let him know of every pick and etc. It’s all good and all but it is much more fun with everyone together. It was great seeing Kim and Brian again, plus Zeke and the rest of the gang. Love em all!!

The tacos were great that Kim and Brian brought, yummy!!

Aug

20

Motorcycle Ride

Last weekend Jeff, Kevin, Zack, Brandon and Brooke came out to visit and they brought their motorcycles. Oh man did we have a blast riding them though Icicle Creek and Hwy 2 up to Stevens Pass.

Here are a couple of the pictures that I was able to get with my iphone. Naturally I forgot my good camera however Brooke didn’t and she took a ton of pictures which I will be getting soon.

I especially love the picture of Brandon and Brooke and Zack and Brooke, she is so photogenic. With a contagious smile. I love that girl and my son better marry her soon!

Don’t ya just love my nice helmet head hair do, haha! It was awesome riding on the Harley with Kevin, I sure have missed him. I was bummed that Val couldn’t come out but she had to do that wicked thing, called “WORK”….. Yikes!